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who am i ?

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where to start ?!
my name is sally
i am fifty six
single but not celibate
and very taurean
that is to say :
creative
sensual
obsessed with aesthetics
form
beauty
harmony
and stubborn as you like
or maybe don’t …
i have been living on the side of a small mountain
in the midi of southern france
for over nine years now …
i got captured by this domaine here
which i love more passionately today
than i did the day i bought it
despite the times when i could gladly have walked aWay
empty-handed  …
i call it earthsky
which perfectly reflects it’s elemental nature …
the long-time dream has allWays been
to run earthsky as a retreat centre
taoist based
for the sharing of creativity and healing …
it’s taken somewhat longer than forseen
to renovate the property
and myself …
i still don’t feel quite qualified
to realize that dream
but is one ever ?
one is not getting any younger
and one has to start somewhere

sometime

so this blog

represents my first outward step

in the direction of sharing with others

some of the practices and perceptions

which have enabled me to survive and evolve

through the series of challenges

that i have encountered along the Way …

meanwhile

earthsky has become :

my own personal retreat centre

healing space

building site

home

studio

gallery

project

raison d’etre

and challenge …

i share it with jacques

a boistrous and very charming black and white dog

he is infamously volatile

as am i

but that’s all changing now …

i’ve dragged us both through the bush backwards in recent years

since he was a pup actually

but we’ve survived all that quite graciously

and things have eased up nicely now …

neither of us have ever drawn the blood of another

really!

we’re both very friendly

most of the time …

i don’t want to scare you

you see

because i still hold a vision

of sharing this space with others

from time to time

others who come here

as i have done

(and do)

for support with their healing

their creativity

their wholing …

one of these decades …

in the meantime

here i go

ATLAST

with my blog

this is the biggest

blankest

canvas

i’ve encountered yet

it’s a little scary

and quite exciting

so much space to share so much …

my plan :

to share the story of my healing journey

my journey towards wholeness

my wish :

to hear your story

sharing a creative healing journey

        as we ramble together along the Way ………

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Written by earthsky23

06/02/2011 at 14:50

what am i here for ?

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i have chosen to nurture the belief
that we are all here on a road to paradise
that is a Way that leads towards :
growth
healing
     wholeness …
the alternative should be unthinkable
but i have given that thought much too much time and energy
   and have paid the price …
it made me quite sick
so now
(in the interests of my health)
i have chosen to conclude that i am here
to find a Way to paradise
towards growth, healing, wholeness
and all their etceteras …
Taoism has become the bedrock of that Way
for me and millions of others
offering as it does a wealth of simple techniques
by which the quality of one’s existence may be upgraded
         and fallen angels may heal their broken wings ………

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06/02/2011 at 14:49

who do i love ?

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well ?!
i love my dog
jacques
that’s for sure …
my mentors
and my boyos
my sisters
their kids
(and their partners
when they’re being reasonable)
i love  my mum
when we’re not driving each other barking mad
most of my friends
most of the time
and myself
du temps en temps ………

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06/02/2011 at 14:49

what do i love ?

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i love my home
i love to be creative:
as a designer
an artist
a writer
a builder
a gardener
a cook
 i love my practice
which i call strance
(strance = stretch + trance + dance)
i love to dance when the music’s right
i love massage
the giving and the receiving of
i love nature
the miniscule and the majiscule of creation
i love to travel
especially in morocco …
i love to make love
especially in a tantric way with one who understands
that almost happened once
i’m still trying to trace the geezer over a decade later
but it’s proving to be challenging as i never got his surname
so i’m cultivating a tantric relation-ship with the universe
entre temps ………

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06/02/2011 at 14:48

what inspires me

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barefootdoctor ………

 

my teacher, mentor, healer, muse

virtual Taoist wizard

and first class ally on the Way …

 

his site barefootdoctorglobal.com/ is still ridiculously good value

and he’s recently launched a blog  superchargedtaoist.com/

where he’s giving away loads of his very best stuff

 

both are really MOST highly recommended ………

 

and wherethehellismatt.com/ is allWays guarunteed to raise a smile …

 

Matt gave up designing violent video games

wrote his own job description

and is now said to be doing rather well …

 

one of my lovely sisters supplied me with this translation

of the Bengali backing track to Matt’s sweet dance :

 

The Song Of Life.

 

The same stream of life that runs through my life night and day

runs through the world and dances in rhythmic measures.

 

It’s the same life that shoots in joy

through the dust of the earth innumerable blades of grass

and breaks into tumultuous waves of leaves and flowers.

 

It is the same life that is rocked in the ocean cradle

of life and death

of ebb and flow.

 

I feel my limbs made glorious by the touch of this world of life.

And my pride is from the life throb of all ages

dancing in my blood this moment ………

 

i am learning this by heart

and repeating it to myself

and to creation

as a mantra

 

it inspires me deeply

and i suspect it may do the same for you …

 

try reading it out loud a few times over

whilst addressing yourself to the infinite

 

then observe your change of mood !

 

Written by earthsky23

06/02/2011 at 14:47

run for your life intro ………

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this is the brain-storm skeleton/introduction for my first best-seller :
RUN FOR YOUR LIFE !
Gabrielle Roth (diva of ‘The Five Rhythms’) is reputed to have said
‘If you can just get them moving they will heal themselves!’
dear Barefoot puts it his own succinct way
‘Get your chi moving freely and the money soon follows!’
for most of the duration of this life-time atleast
i’ve been engrossed (quite literally)
in some in-depth personal research into these very subjects
for most of my fifty six years in this body
i have been a highly committed couch potato
infamous for my occasional forays into that ‘other world’ of physical exercise
yoga, tai chi, qi gong, hua gong, jogging, dance, strance etceteras
have always yielded very positive results for me
about which i have often been (as now) somewhat evangelical
only to succumb, yet again, to chronic inertia …
please believe me
i have done the research here
and i do merit the tea shirt
it embarrasses me considerably to admit
that i have spent atleast half of my life under the duvet
in a state of fairly extreme depression and ill-health
and that is my truth …
but this is a sad story with a happy ending
because about five months ago now
i took up ‘running’
and the results have been truly astounding
on the very many levels
so i can vouch for the verity of my mentors’ words
with considerable conviction …
this is a lightly edited list of the effects i have noted
as a result of ‘running’ for only about nine minutes
once, or sometimes twice, most days ………
my foundations are stronger and firmer
like never before
there is much more love in my life
both ways
i am enjoying sweeter sleep than ever before
and am most often up before the sun
i am enjoying more respect for myself and from others
also more positive attention from others and from myself
there is an increasing clarity about my being
physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, socially, sexually
and even financially
(apparently the effort that i have made
to quicken my physical body
has evoked positive repercussions on the many levels
is this unprecedented optimism that has bubbled up in me
so simply a natural consequence of better health ?!
no matter
these multiple surprise bonuses that i am enjoying are, you may imagine, MOST welcome)
i have more authority
over myself and others
hence i have a much happier hound !
jacques has chilled right out
and is more contented
less needy
like me …
more obedient ?
when it occasionally suits him !
i am calmer, more centred, more grounded
my digestion is much better
and my eliminative functions have improved beyond belief
hence my complexion is noticeably clearer …
en plus all ‘puffiness’ about my person has dispersed
most remarkably from my face
so there is atlast a rumour of some bone structure
about mon visage
which is very very cool
you may imagine !
(apparently this is due to improved lymph circulation)
en plus my vagina
has spontaneously become more toned
more sensitive and more responsive
(i kid you not
these are the true words of a post-menopausal woman
who is ATLAST awakening to the simple miracle of improved health
on the many levels)
actually my entire body has become more toned
more sensitive and more responsive
it’s really quite an adventure!
i am able to surrender more completely
to enjoy deeper levels of pleasure than ever before
i have MUCH better orgasms …
there really is a LOT to be said for the endorphine effect
and my sense of humour is much improved too …
there has been a radical positive transformation of my inner dialogue
i have noticed an activation of positive potentials
nurtured by past efforts
which had not shown obvious results hitherto
much of what i had learnt and forgotten
is coming back to me
i surmise that this is what we mean by re-membering …
i have become more courageous
more authentic
much less fearful
i am enjoying the hitherto very rare experience of ‘joie de vivre’ quite consistently
my posture is much improved
i am more aligned
everything has become much easier
i am much more positive
and experiencing much more gratitude
I AM MUCH MORE ALIVE
my inner thermostat has become more efficient
so my heating bills have been reduced considerably
i am more focused
more in the flow
my concentration has improved
also balance and coordination
i have more stamina
need less sleep
and spend much less time in bed
i am more creative
and much more social
I AM ENJOYING A RADICALLY TRANSFORMED LIFE !
with much enlivened animal spirits
i have finally found a Way
to include myself in the human race
it has been so very simply a matter of a little training
such a blatantly obvious key to progress
how did it evade me for so many decades ?!
i am now understanding how very cheeky i was
to have aspired to an immortal golden light body
when the given physical was so undervalued !
my head is now much clearer
a very pertinent indication in my particular schema …
THERE IS A GREAT AWAKENING OCCURING
physically. mentally, emotionally, spiritually,  socially,  sexually and even commercially
i am enjoying a new-found sense of heart-fullness and connection
to myself, other and the Tao
also MUSCLE TONE
holding everything together so elegantly …
an aspect of the human experience i had never hitherto explored
which is most highly recommended !
i am more inspired
and feel closer to enlightenment
safer from the darkness atleast …
i am more interested
more interesting
more charismatic
and more attractive
i am living waves of sadness for lost time and opportunities
wishing that i had discovered these now so blatantly obvious truths a good half century ago
or atleast nurtured them more diligently when they came to me briefly in my teens
and i am very happy to be-here-now
on an ascending spiral
enjoying feelings of innocence and redemption
fascinated by all that is
and finding that this one very basic activity
has a profoundly positive effect
on all my thoughts and feelings …
i have finally sourced some self confidence and some self respect
many things are falling into place
i’m in much better shape …
everything is straightening itself out
from the tips of my toes to the top of my head !
i am enjoying very healthy appetites
i am more upright
more alert
more acceptable to myself and others
more attractive to myself and others
i fancy myself more
others fancy me more
life is much more fun …
i don’t have to work so hard
others are happy to meet me half Way now
i am ‘in demand’ for the first time in living memory
truly a quantum shift in my social status
for one who knows the difference !

i am enjoying

a very tangible quickening of the life force

which is passing through me

much more abundantly than ever before

 

longsaught TANTRA has expressed herself through me

on a few occasions now !

 

my hormonal balance is much healthier

the virulence of my embarrassing facial hair much reduced

sleeplessness and hot flushes a thing of the past

 

i feel softer, more feminine

and much more open to pleasure …

 

i am living very comfortably in my new running shoes

 

i am better looking

and experiencing a sense of living in grace

and harmony

more surrendered on many levels

more trusting of myself, other and the Tao

 

so deeply centred and content

HUMDOOLILAH !

 

i had long-since come to believe

that awakening and transformation were for other

not for the likes of me

 

now this renaissance

so long invoked

has snucken up on me unawares

at the moment when i least expected it

 

how has such a radical quantum shift occured?

at this most opportune time?

 

‘running’ on the Taoist Way has been the key for me

 

there is hope

PEACE

full-fill-ment

 

i am much more comfortable in my body

from the soles of my feet

to the top of my bump

 

THANK YOU GREAT SPIRIT

FOR ALL THAT IS…

FOR ALL THAT IS

THANK YOU

 

and thanks also to family, friends and mentors

YOU who have enabled me to survive

and grow to feel this Way …

 

my over-all-relation-ship

with myself, other and the Tao

has undergone a long-awaited-quantum-shift

 

i have become more methodical

more measured and deliberate in action

 

my cupboards have all been rationalised now

and i’m intending to have the windows clean by the end of the week

 

chopping wood and carrying water

are becoming ever more delight-full activities ………

 

many blessings and love as ever

xxxxxxOOOxxxxxx

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Written by earthsky23

06/02/2011 at 14:44

candid cold turkey ………

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@3.30pm13/3/10@earthsky

it’s time for some ‘spring-cleaning’
NOW!

Ganesh has been invoked

space is being prepared
creativity is being indulged

i’m giving myself
nine days

to purify myself

to cleanse the heart of my existence

a dedication
in preparation

for the next level………

as from my next ‘shower’

and i have Shiva’s permission
for another ‘last number’………

(said ritual douche finally occured
around sunrise the next morning…

after saying a long and fond goodbye
to some very dear old monsters)…

@7.35am15/3/10@earthsky

day2
peace blessed peace

i feel more connected to all that is

calmer
more centred

surrendered to the flow
and trusting

more open
more loving
less afraid

cleaner and clearer
bolder and braver

i am settling
more deeply
into my body
than ever before

soft belly shining
from the inside out…

@6am16/3/10@earthsky

day3
evidently this old and outworn self
is not one to be lightly left behind

my throat is less sore now
but my nose is still a beacon

i have a really gross cough

and i haven’t touched tobacco
for atleast 48 hours now

HUMDOOLILAH!!!

wishing us all infinite progress
for ever!

xxOxx

@2.30pm17/3/10@earthsky

day 4
and i’m not a bundle of laughs today
or yesterday…

de-tox-re-action + vicious-viral-head-cold
does not = bliss

far from it…
this phase of the process is ‘to be survived’…

it’s a glorious ‘first days of spring’ day here

i’m trying to enjoy raucous noises
made by happy birds
shouting about the return of printemps…

and look forward
to celebrating with them
when this crushingly achy
birth phase of the adventure
has passed…

please gods very soon…

@11am19/3/10@earthsky

day6
and the healing crisis
appears to be
pulling back from it’s crescendo now

i’m showered and freshly dressed
for the first time since the sacrifice

around 125 hours has been given
simply to surviving
this quantum shift in my reality
as graciously as may be
or not

and here i am

now awakening

to a radically transformed life
in a tobacco free zone

liberated
ATLAST!

and practicing open presence
one-ness-with-all-that-is

sobeitsobeitsobeit……….
andsoitwasandsoitwasandsoitwas………

@3.30pm
and i really am well into recovery now

having survived some brutally challenging rites of passage
yours truly has now become a tobacco free zone

did i mention that before?

yes really
since last sunday 7am

please pray for my continued success on this adventure

this is ‘THE BIG ONE’ for me

i’ve been stuck at this portal forever
time to move on through now…

THE QUANTUM LEAP HAS BEEN MADE
i just have to keep on keeping on now…

support me any Way you can
with this
please…

sending
1ove
1ight
and all best wishes
to you and ours

as ever

xxOxx

@5pm

it’s been interesting living
the last few days

with my head in a vice

squashed
suffocating
and conscious through another birth…

and it’s interesting now
awakening on that other level

most grateful to be
openly present
presently open

learning to swim in a new dimension

‘wings spread wide and smiling’…

the birds are shouting all about it
and the sky agrees…

please pass me my sword………

@3.30pm20/3/10@earthsky

day7
and i really am getting better now
humdoolilah

having survived some more challenging straits…

i’ve spent most of this week with my head stuck in the birth canal
getting thoroughly crushed
whilst having great diffficulty breathing

but it was worth it
to get born again

into this new dimension
so clear
and fresh

it’s a tobacco free zone you know!

and i’ve celebrated
by moving forward
atlast

into week2 of Barefoot’s School For Warriors
which is all about learning to breathe!

meanwhile
enjoying very spicy chicken soup
whilst earnestly building up my strength
for the next level….

and wishing You only the best
with 1ove as ever

xxOxx

@7.45pm

this is atleast the zillionth time
that i’ve ‘given up’ tobacco

and the first and last time

that i’ll blog it…

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06/02/2011 at 14:41